I am so sick of being such a pathetic idiot. I had tickets to RTX London, my gf got them for me months and months and months ago. Then it came time to go and I freaked out again and couldn't do it. Couldn't handle the travel, couldn't handle all the people and all the stuff and the endless waiting and the lack of anywhere safe and quiet to run away to oh and not to mention all the goddamn people. I didn't want to go just to end up crying in a hotel room like when we tried to go to that concert and left before the support act had even finished. Thousands of people went to RTX and had a great time and I can't even fucking handle going outside anymore.