For the last 6 weeks I've had the wonderful privilege of internship for a publishing company- they publish multiple magazines in Florida and I've actually subscribed to their work off-and-on over the years - however now that I'm more situated and confident in my abilities, compared to college it's less taxing as an individual but working as a part of a bigger network of people means there's a much narrower space for errors. Luckily everyone I'm learning from are wonderful women of the industry; extremely knowledgeable and couldn't possibly be any more welcoming.
I've been editing photos, designing layouts, having had to make anyone a single cup of coffee (thank god, this was a literal anxiety trigger for me my first day) and even better I was given my own desk and Mac to work with! The space is a little cramped since the Senior Editor sits behind me; plus there's the nervous possibility she's peeking over my shoulder while I work sometimes, but I like the pressure. One of the biggest differences I'm noticing is in college typically you handle majority of a project yourself -- designing, printing, editing, presenting, etc. -- so you develop this 'take it all on' mindset, but in the field I'm seeing there's layers of people who make it more of a process. Honestly that negative little part of me was expecting to be fired within the week; expecting them to give me some massive gap in my knowledge that to them was basic. However, I'm proud to say from what the Senior Editor tells me I'm doing fantastic!
Now for the reason I'm posting this entry... I wanted to encourage anyone who happens to scroll through some random journals to keep themselves motivated, never think you're done trying. 4-years ago I had no confidence in my abilities or any strong ambition to something special. Admittedly I still struggle with those a bit, however I've gotten a lot better! What I'm saying is: don't fixate on how little you're growing, cause we'll all get there just at different rates. If there's one thing this internship has taught me it's persistence isn't just a skill but a necessity.
P.S. Today the Senior Editor pulled me aside and offered me a Part-Time job there once my internship is over. I. Will. Be. Paid!